Fellin' Bl(gr)oggy Today

Well...I'm in a blog mood....maybe becuase I had emence amounts of rest. Alot more than I usually have. Now this is in connection with my last most. If you remember..I had a lil' problem sleeping, so this time I decided to get a little chemical help. This is my first experience buying sleeping pills and I tend not to take drugs unless absolutely necessary. My experience even though only 2 days long is turning out to be an interesting one. The sleeping pills have helped a great deal in that I usually fall asleep in about an hour after taking them. But this is the problem: they keep on working when I don't need them to (I thought that was the Energizer Bunnies gig, lol).

So this weekend I came back from seeing my boo. Now after sleeping for about 9 hours we finally got up and he went off to work and I headed home. However, I fell asleep and got off on the wrong stop. Luckily, I could still get off at that stop and get home, it just takes me about 45 mins. longer becuase of the shuttel schedule. I found that experience to be a little strange. When I finally got home, I had planned to go to the gym then since I had work later that night (that's where I am writing this entry from now). But that didn't happen either, I ended up taking a small lay down session and turning it into a 2.5 hour nap. needless to say I work up at 8:30pm and missed the gym all together. That's not like me, I HIT THE GYM!!! So I'm going through this little delimma as to whether these pills are worth it. To tell you the truth I am kinda happy to be able to sleep at will because sleeping ahs brought a a certian amount of piece to me. You forget about all your troubles in the world for that one time, that one period of time that you are unconcience. I have really felt like that since freshman year.

Now for my second topic. I had a dream. Not the MLK type of dream but just as important non-the-less (whether you think so or not). I had a dream that I was a Nurse. I had a dream that I renewed my passion for science, and I was doing what I loved once more and at that, I was making lots of money. Now this dream definitely coinsides with what I been feeling for the past few weeks about this whole job hunt thing. It's getting tired. It's frustrating and it's taking alto out of me. I'm a determined person becuase I would have given up a long time ago. I was actually thinking about posted up my resume on one fo my blogs and hoping someone would see it. I'm that serious about it. Maybe that will be my next post.

Key problem: I'm graduating in May from a state college with an accumulative GPA of 3.4 and I'm a Law & Society major. I have only 6 months exeperience as a Jr. paralegal within small law firm. Sounds ok, but it's not good enough in the field of law. I am aiming to become a paralegal until law school. I am determined but the fish aren't biting. There is too much competition out there. And no one knows where RAMAPO COLLEGE IS!!! Now I was once a Bio./Nursing major but I dropped the program to pursue law. Law was something I had never done before and I wanted to "diversify". BIG MISTAKE, now I'm bursting my ass with all the other idiots who wanted to easy way out of college. Well I guess you get what you work for. So with that here's to NOT TAKING THE EASY WAY OUT.

P.S> I really appreciate your comments even thoguh I haven't been responding. I will soon.

A Very Determined Special K
Thanx for reading.