Thursday, January 1, 2009

The Year of Ox...?


Well, I personally have given much thought to where my blog has lead in the past year and upon examining that, I opted to leave it alone for a bit. I haven't posted anything in probably over a month now because I didn't have the inspiration to make it go in the right direction. The excerpts from the past few months haven't delivered what I offered in the beginning of my blog experience, now two year's in the running. The reason I started the blog was lost.

I believe over time that my blog became just a glorified down pour of what unclear emotion I was feeling at the time; just a intermittent outlet, not a solution. It only addressed one aspect of my life and left out the rest as a whole. I didn't write about my everyday experiences anymore, I just wrote about the frustrations in my life; what I needed help with at that particular time.

Hence I spent the last few weeks sporadically planning my reinvention; my renewal. I have also realized that I have slowly grown into lower to intermediate level depression. It seemed like I was not living life anymore the way I should live it. There were no new experiences, valuable lesson's being learned and no new friendships being built. I was living in place of worry and burden, just holding on.

So for 2009, this is what I want to steam from my writing: I want to bring hope and inspiration in my blogs again. I want a return to real and persuasive writing; writing with a method and wit. I want to increase the degree of eloquence in my expression. I want to be able to write about anything and bring some relevance to the table for everyone. So that 's as much as I can say for 2009.

I see this as being a year where I resume positivity and productive energy.

As far as personal circumstances go, as fate would have it, I'm back with the one and only...He seem's to be slipping through the cracks ever so often, however, always at the right time resurfacing and bringing new definition to our constantly developing relationship. Believe it or not, I feel more confident now than I ever did, for reason's I can only personally explain. We are not the perfect relationship, but I do believe we are as perfect for each other as God is willing to show me at this time.


A Positive Special K

Welcome 2009!

P.S. The pic is from our recent and unexpected trip to the BIG A! Hopefully We'll make it down there again and actually to see more of the city than downtown. I also hope we are there for different reason's than we were this time, but that a hole other blog entry.

5 comments:

WhozHe said...

Happy New Year! Just keep sharing you and you will inspire alot of people in your blogging.

deonte' k said...

Happy new year buddy, and I look forward to reading more from you. ;)

Ron said...

Happy New year!!!! This was good!!!

Chet said...

Happy New Year to you as well. Pleased that most everything isgoing well, and that the year is off to the right start...a good start.

heartbreaker said...

happy new yr boi!! i hope 09 brings u all of the energy and inspiration ur heart and mind desires