Is it True........

Growing up Special K is no joke. This week has been the most emotionally trying week I’ve had since, well a long time. Everything else in my life is fine except my relationship. I’m going through another break up and listening to Keyshia Cole every morning is the only thing I can do because that’s the only way I can feel as though someone else can feel what I’m feeling.

I’m in a small trance, only 1 step away from reality, like I’m on the outside looking at the show that’s being filmed in my room.

Not Believing...Not Seeing…Not Hearing….

I feel a little empty, a little unsure. I feel like everything I say becomes a metaphor. One scene after the next takes place. Things I never saw happening are happening now.

I must go through my heart ache because, its just that, my heart ache, no one else’s.

I feel my mind thinking thoughts that I know I shouldn’t feel, euphoria which hides and masks what I don’t believe is happening.

That’s what it feels like a movie.

Listening to:

True – Brandy (reminds me of the importance of truth in or lives)
Heaven Sent – Keyshia Cole (reminds me of my heaven (when he was around))
I’m Okay – Chrisette Michele (lets me know that love it self is not over)