I figured it out...I know the secret to happiness..

Now I'm going to make this post short...this summer has indeed been the type of summer that I anticipated it to be and I have so much going on right now its pretty unbelievable. Your boy has been pretty much bee blessed over and over again so for once I'm really smiling. Well I guess the biggest accomplishment this summer is that I figured out what makes me happy..the funny thing is its so simple and obvious but very true and unique to me. I never really understood it but I know I've always been this way. All it took what a matter of looking at things in prospective. The good thing is once you know what makes you happy you also know the one thing that can make you the most sad. In anticipation of heart break you do your best to prevent it. Even though losing it can cause the most stressful experiences. Giving love and caring for someone else makes me happy!!!!!!!! We'll I don't know how exciting that is to you readers but its really exciting to me because it means the world. It means that I've found the door to my unconditional happiness in my life time. I'm not talking about the "charity" kind of love or care even though I seem to be very partial to that kind of activity. I guess love means alot to me because I have seen the contrast between exceptional love and a far-fetched expression of it. But I know how it feels in side to feel the real thing, in my case it feels even better when I give it. As they say in life there are two types of ppl, givers and takers, it seems that quite frankly I'm a giver. Instead of searching for love, it makes me more happy to find someone I can give it to. What makes my life worth it is knowing that I can put a genuine smile on someone else's face and a feeling of love in their heart. The fact that I've swept them off there feet makes me feel extremely good inside. For me this explains alot of things in terms of how I interact with people. It explains why I'm 90% of the time the initiator. It explains why why I'm never really disappointed even after investing alot in something. It means that I've solved the puzzle that so many people are take sabbaticals and trips to Europe to figure out. Fuck a horoscope..no random magician can tell you who you are and tell you your path to happiness. Find it in yourself. Here's to happiness and contentment of which I've found. God forbid if I die tonight but I know I'll die a happy man.

- A Complete Special K

P.S. hope you didn't through up after all this lovey dovey stuff..lol

Safer Sex: Using Your Head....

Very few things we do when having sex are likely to result in HIV. When you know the basics of how HIV can be passed on, you can decide what means for you. For a sexual activity to pass on HIV there has to be:

a person
a bodily fluid with HIV in it (cum or blood)
enough HIV in that fluid to be passed on
another person
a way for the HIV to get into the other person's bloodstream
Without all of these things, it is impossible for HIV to be passed on. The amount of HIV in the blood and cum of a person varies over time. The more virus there is, the more chance there is of being able to pass on HIV. This is called viral load. A person has the greatest viral load and is most able to pass on HIV immediately after they have just gotten HIV themselves (and may not even know they have HIV). So let's look at what we enjoy doing and how to reduce the chance of HIV being passed on.





HIV cannot be spread by spit. There is no evidence that kissing or cuddling could lead to HIV being passed on. However, try to avoid deep kissing if both you and your partner have:

open mouth sores
open cuts in the mouth
bleeding lips or gums as these involve blood and there's a small chance of HIV being passed on.


: Mutual Masturbation
HIV is NOT passed on by:

wanking, either alone or with someone else
massage and body stroking
cumming on somebody (if there are no open cuts or sores) Avoid using someone else's cum as a lubricant. It might enter the tip of the cock, or small abrasions on your cock. This might allow HIV to be passed into the blood stream.



Sucking and being sucked
HIV is not passed on from the mouth to someone else's cock. There are a small number of recorded cases of people getting HIV from taking cum into their mouth. In almost all of the cases the person had herpes sores, cuts or infections in their mouth. It isn't easy for HIV to enter the bloodstream via the mouth or throat. If you're and there is any bleeding in your mouth, or if you have a gum disease or other oral infections (such as a sore throat) take extra care. Brushing your teeth before oral sex can give you bleeding gums. To be really safe, you can pull his cock out of your mouth before he cums, so that you do not get cum in your mouth. A condom on the cock you're sucking is an ultra-safe strategy.

: Licking out
Rimming, licking another person's arse, does not pass on HIV. However, some other serious illnesses such as viral hepatitis are easily passed on this way. You can use sheets of clear plastic food wrap or a dental dam as protection.

: Passive fucking
If you're , being fucked by another guy's cock up your arse without a condom is the most likely way of getting HIV, if you're not 100% certain of your partner's HIV status, or if you know your sex partner is . Cum that carries HIV can easily enter the bloodstream through the lining of the arse and through small cuts or abrasions that occur during fucking. Having your sex partner use a condom with a water-based lubricant is the best way to reduce the chances of getting or giving HIV or other STDs.

: Active fucking
If you're , fucking another guy up the arse without a condom on your cock is another likely way of getting HIV, if you're not 100% certain of your sex partner's HIV status, or if you know your sex partner is . Many guys think that because they're the one doing the fucking, the HIV can't enter their body. but it can enter the cock through the opening at the tip (the meatus), or through tiny cuts or scratches on the cock. Reduce the chances of getting or giving HIV by using a condom and a water-based lubricant.




Try experimenting with condoms before using them for sex. Get yourself used to the feel of them. Wank with them on. Try tearing one or two while you've got them on, so that you can feel what that's like. You can feel the difference, so that if a condom tears when you're fucking, you'll know when to pull out.

Put the condom on before starting to fuck, not just before you're about to cum.
When putting the condom on, squeeze the air out of the tip first. Roll the condom all the way down to the base of your cock to prevent it slipping off.
If you're uncircumcised, pull your foreskin back before fitting the condom on. You might need to practice to find out how to get a condom to stay on.
Choose a brand of condoms that suits your cock size and shape.





: Pulling out
Withdrawal (pulling out before cumming) does not protect you from giving or getting HIV. Some guys do this as a way to have the thrill of fucking without using condoms, thinking that if the person fucking pulls out in time, this counts as safe sex. This isn't true. Withdrawal can still lead to HIV being passed on because:

if you're the active partner (the one doing the fucking) blood from your partner's arse can still enter the hole at the tip of your cock, or get into tiny scratches or cuts on your cock.
if you're the passive partner (the one being fucked), there's no guarantee that your partner won't cum in your arse. Withdrawal before orgasm is a very difficult thing to time perfectly! Again, using condoms and a water-based lubricant can prevent this risk. Many gay men in Australia who have recently tested reported that they thought withdrawal was safe.




Some people will tell you that condoms often break. However, often the mistakes that people make that lead to condom breakage can be easily corrected. Condoms aren't 100% reliable, but using them correctly is the best way there is to make fucking safe. Remember the following:

Use lots of water-based lubricant such as KY jelly, Wet Stuff, Glyde or Lubafax. Some people mistakenly use oil based lubricants like Vaseline, baby oil, hand creams, Intensive Care or other oil based lubes, without realising that these actually dissolve the latex of the condom, leading to breakages.
Check the use by date on your condoms. Avoid using out-of-date condoms.
Be sure to buy condoms made to Australian standards-check the outside of the pack.
Never leave condoms out in the sun, or near any sharp objects that might damage them, or in the glove box of your car for a prolonged period of time.
Don't store your condoms near extreme heat or cold.
Don't use ultra-thin condoms as these are designed for vaginal sex. Anal sex puts more stress on condoms. Use extra strength condoms for anal sex.



"Negotiated Safety"
Some people who share the same known HIV status choose to fuck without condoms. This can only be safe when you both know for certain that you're bothor both . Discuss with your partner how important it is for you to fuck without condoms. If it's not that important, then keep using them. If you want to fuck without condoms, then here are some steps you could follow:

If you're both
Talk with your doctor about the possible effects of being exposed to another strain of the virus. It's your choice to enjoy unprotected fucking with anotherperson if you both want to.

If you think you're both
If you both want to fuck without condoms, then both get tested for HIV. Be completely honest about your results, or agree to go and get tested and collect your results together. What would it mean if one of you had HIV and the other didn't? Talk about this first. If it would mean the end of the relationship then maybe you should just keep using condoms? Continue to use condoms every time you fuck for 3 months after either of you could possibly have come into contact with HIV. After 3 months, both get tested again.

If one of you has HIV and the other does not
Keep using condoms and water-based lubricant every time you fuck. If you need support around this contact the PLC (Positive Living Centre) or other agencies listed on the Directory page.

If you know you're both
Discuss your future plans. Make a commitment to each other that you'll avoid fucking outside of your relationship (this strategy is more successful) or that if either of you fuck with anyone else you will use condoms (this strategy is less successful). You will need to make a decision about trusting each other. Make a commitment that if either of you has a slip-up or an accident that results in unsafe sex outside of the relationship, you'll agree to tell the other immediately. You'll need to go back to safe sex until you've both been tested twice again 3 months apart.

Talk with each other about how slip-ups or accidents might happen. Agree in advance that it won't mean the end of your relationship. Don't punish your partner for being honest.
You might want to agree in advance that either partner can insist on using condoms again, without having to explain why.
If all of this seems like too much to handle, then keep using condoms whenever you fuck.



HIV can be passed on during vaginal sex. The virus is found in both cum and vaginal fluids. If you're fucking with a woman the best way to prevent HIV being passed on either way is to use a condom with water-based lubricant.HIV is unlikely to be passed on in oral sex when a man is going down on a woman although the risk increases if there is menstrual blood. If there are cuts or sores on the man's mouth sheets of clear plastic food wrap, or a dental dam, can be used to protect against HIV being passed on. Check out the range of heterosexual safe sex information available.



Using drugs or alcohol might affect your ability to make sensible decisions about having safe sex, and your ability to let your partner know what you want. It's a good idea to make the choice to be prepared for safe sex before using drugs and alcohol. Making sure you've always got condoms and water-based lubricant with you can make it easier decision to have sex without regret.



If you inject drugs remember that each person should use a new clean needle and other equipment every time. Do not share needles, swabs, spoons, filters or tourniquets! SAVIVE at the AIDS Council of South Australia offers a 24 hour needle exchange. Cleaning fits for 5 minutes with strong bleach is not 100% safe. Ring SAVIVE on (08) 362 9299 for further information.



Being committed to safe sex all the time isn't easy. There are always going to be times when it's hard to stick to safe sex. It's important to be able to talk about this with people we trust. We should not be judgmental if friends tell us that they have had a slip-up. Most gay men can remember or imagine what leads to an unsafe incident. Remember that slip-ups don't mean we've gone off the rails or that we are bad. Just make the decision to have safe sex in future-for a long life enjoying sex without regret.


Source: http://www.managingdesire.org/GaySexWithoutRegret.html

Ayeeee Papi......

He closed the door ma plan was to make him wait but I couldn’t take it no more he had ma heart pumping visions of me and his body thumping in da shower or on da floor bumping he picked me up in his blue lex even tho I wanted him bad this was more then sex this was passion it was meant to be I thought I would melt in his arms as he held and kissed me I couldn't wait to feel him inside even tho he was a thug he had a soft side he kissed down ma chest I let ma self go as he started to caress he got down to ma dick slowly put it in his mouth Ayyyy Papi was all I could scream out yea he was a top str8 up all hood but he did this for me to make a nigga feel good I looked down stared at face at da moment the feeling none could replace it felt sooo rite the sensation but in da back of ma mind I couldn't wait for penetration “im ready Papi” was all I needed to say he spit ma dick out and got up right away this I kno I would neva forget we undressed he bent me over but he wasn't ready to enter yet “Nigga daddy’s bout to get you wet” all I could scream out was ooh baby he stuck his tong in ma ass and I went crazy over a chair he had me bent this was one of da greatest night I’ve eva spent in da mist of ma mowning you heard him slurping ma ass in the back round when he was done took me to da bed and laid me down he entered me it hurt me of course im tite “ahhhhh take it slow daddy we got all night” he looked down at me as to say nigga you right even tho he slowed down I thought I would tare the head bored of then hinges cuz the nigga was hung like a horse about 10 inches as he was pounding he was soo relentless the pain had went away ma shyt was open for bizness I popped it twrked it itz like he knew wat spots it hit his dick was perfect I mean I aint fem ima thug shyt but da way he hit it I couldn't help but feel like a bytch I moned and screamed his name in high pitch and it just excited me more when he yelled “WHO’S ASS IS THIS” “YOU KNO ITZ YOURS DADDY” I replayed after 4 hours and 8 positions later he screamed “IM READY TO CUMM IN SIDE” at this moment I realized he didn't use a rubber to cover his dick up but da the moment I didn't give a fuck he increased speed and he had ma body buck he wasn't a selfish nigga cuz I had already bussed like 3 nuts “ahhhhh here it comes he screamed then I woke up mad cuz I realized it was just a dream.

Posted on behalf of King_Infamous

Behind a Niggaz Mask....

Well, if its shocking to you that I’ve posted 3 entries in about the same number of days…DON’T BE (-: !!! it’s the summer time and usually this the time of the year is when I have to most time on my hands and the most creative energy flowing through my circulatory system…I was sitting at my comp. and looking at my pix..b4 you say “oh lawd, this dude is so conceited…and he aint even all that”…lmao that not the end I was looking for.Iit really hit how my style has changed so much in since past 3 years…I saw it changing almost unconsciously, like I was someone else looking at it form a distance and having no real say in it. Of course the general principles and concepts remain the same; still clean still a urban/chique… but the mixes and servings of each has changed…anyone that know me knows I still love a clean shirt and a tie…but my persona in relation to subliminal messages remains the same. Clothing has changed quiet a bit..I mean I have rolled around a few times and given into the more or less typical urban rockstar look that is being popularized these days… even the straight boys rockin’ some questionable shyt in order to achieve the effect. I believe no matter how unique we dress…we find out self in that familiar confinement of urban pop-culture…no matter how we define our clothing style..the image is unique and different but essentially the same. It is not an exception to be unique…however we popularize unique and before you know it unique has become mainstream. I also realized how old and out of date my photos are..lol but that’s another story…..I think I’ve been to lazy to do new photos especially the butt naked one…jus playin’. Not into amateur porn. However it is only fair that give people the right image..I don’t agree with false advertisement. The real reason I haven’t is that the excitement has really escaped me…the e is no newness in doing it. I believe I’ve grown ever so slightly more conceited over the years but even more yearning of that which is far below the surface. Now I noted the other day that someone told me I look better in real life than in my pix. I was under the impression that It was the other way around. Lately I seem to care less and less about what image I present under the camera. I guess it’s a slow realization that there is not to much that overcomes personality. I believe I rely more on my personality to attract the ppl I want….which is a good thing..I’ve been told I look mean in my pix but I’m a much more fun-loving person in real life….I been known that’s truth lol. I put up the mean pix to ward off the unwanted…lol. Only a cherish few see the smile.lol …I think I’ve become comfortable in the fact that I tend not to disappoint in looks or personality when I people in real life..I guess its part of growing up that we realize that there is much more behind the mask.
A very good -looking, smart and mature Special K

My Imaginary Best Friend...

I thought about you the other day and I wondered why..I wondered why….while we haven’t spoken and I have no desire to ever speak…there is so much that I should say…there is so much that I know…so much I can tell ...so many words that exists…that I’m able to speak…I want to talk..to say..to type..to tell…I have no desire to speak …I shouldn’t…I recall the days when…what we thought was f****dship existed…just something a bit innocent…just easy going…no motives..no instigation..a bit of faultlessness…a true f****dship…..but you kept changing it..you kept changing it..even though my desire was nothing more than casual…to avoid the headaches..the heart aches…the disappointment the pain…the refusal..the strain…I gave it up to avoid the pain…because I became a better man…stronger…more in touch…never to believe something semi-consciously created …or wanted myself to believe…a world of illusions and fallacy..i gave it up because I created something that would never be…and wasn’t suppose to be, the forbidden words: *** and **…I knew the answers way back then…In reality it was no surprise how it reached its end…its reality ..I can see it...i new it from the beginning...believe it or not..I told you…I knew the desire made its end…so I’m grown now..i’ve spilt my soup..right on queue…its funny cuz...i didn’t believe I knew you…but carry on man..time does pass…for me I know my desire for the imaginary will last….Its reality ..it truth…its love.. a man does what he must… this sort of thing is written in the stars above…even though there are no more than dust..therein remains the irony…an illusion of beautiful ….but to you my imaginary f***d…I know the story had reached its end…recollection of images created…illusion of a long time best friend….

Extra Extra!!! Sex on the Beach this Summer!!!!

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Now, Its been forever since I've wrote an entry but that fact is that there exists so much material for me to right on that it's a shame that it hasn't been transferred to the blog world. I'm on vacation now and I've had alot of time on my hands, but I never could seem to type in blogspot.com in my address bar. Mostly because of self-induced laziness; it happens every summer when I go from a million things to do in one day to looking forward to mowing the lawn. Quiet frankly that seems to be the highlight of my daily events as of now...lol.


Now one things I promised myself this summer is that I would have fun. Well I have been fulling that goal for the most part and I've gone out a few times with some kool peeps. For the most part I'm enjoying it. This summer is turning out to be one that is really rewarding. Everything seems to be working out better in terms of finances, school, relationships and friends. Suffice it to say this wasn't exactly the place I was in last year at this time. Last year at this time, I would been recovering from the infamous Chicken Pox...it's really no laughing matter. It's better to get it earlier than later, I learnt this the hard way as I still have some scares that remain to this day!!! I had a small accident with my aunt's car and I was trying to figure out how I was going to pay off a sizable death to my school so I could register for the Fall semester. This year things are different!!! I mean I still have some small issues, like I lost some important documentation and its going to be a bit of a hassle to get them back. It also means I can't currently travel out of the country if I needed to, however everything should be fine by December. I am planning to spend a few days back home.

I am planning to take a trip to the ATL this summer as well and I may also be in N.C. soon. I'm even thinking about a vacation to FL or Las Vegas. Right now there are alot more pertinent things going on in my life. As some of you know, the relationship thing hasn't been going that well but I've learnt from past mistakes and it has really saved me this time. Now, it seems that what seemed dismal at one point has led me to something even better and something that I've wanted for a long
time. To my enjoyment, June 2007 has brought a smile on my face when I go to bed at night and an exciting urge to get up in the morning. This same "thing" propels me though my boring days because I know what happens at the end of it. It seems that something a bit unexpected is falling into place at the right time. Now, I am pretty ecstatic that this is happening in my life right now and I really deserve it (sometimes I think I don't but I really do). People that are so precious in your life really never realise how special they are until you let them know. So for right now, I am taking the time to convince that person of how special they are. I must say its been pretty easy because the person just makes life that much better (-;. I'm just amazed that someone else hasn't found what I've found as yet and taken it. Now I don't want to explain to much here but there will be more in the future. .
I hoping that they are in my life 5-10-15 years from now as a friend and something else if ti is meant to be. So I want to end this inaugural summer blog with this statement: It's ABOUT TIME!!!! Some times you receive something that a million men don't deserve. It's called an angel in heaven hence the blog title.
YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE..thanks for making the past few days worth it
A very kool in the summer time Special K (-:,
I will be keeping everyone updated..enjoy your summer